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Thursday, May 20, 2004
today was so freaking wierd...
woke up at 8am wanting to go bowl...
in the end didn't cause juz didn't feel like it and i think its a good thing i didn't go cause... if i had been very unsure about mi bowling i wld have gone... but cause i didn't go maybe i do have more confidence in mi bowling... confidence... if onli i had dat during nationals... if onli...
aniwaez... played com games for most of de day... den left for the hdb hub thingie...
ok so here we were one group...
so our facilitator... geraldson told us we have to do sumthing to find out how poor the poor can be... so he said to let us have a first taste of being poor... he took our ez-link card and den sae we muz find our own way to toa payoh... frm sch... yeah... so difficult hor... we "borrowed" money from "pple" at tanglin and go take bus... how poor iz dat???
aniwaez... went for lunch at mac and managed to do up a conversation which lasted continously... surprised mi... looks like dis group's socialising skills not bad...
den got lost in de hdb hub... ended up de exhibition was outside...
den got dis cross-word puzzle thingie and if u solve de whole thingie got free water-bottle... so mi whole grp asked all de other grps who completed already for de answers and we got dem... haha... wtf...
den walk around de exhibition la la la la... so sian...
den at the end... we sat down at "reflect"
typical SJI... everiday reflect here reflect dere... honestly... i relli dun like it... everi single freaking session oso muz reflect... yeah yeah... wtf... totally freaked up... purposely make things seem so complicated...
i mean... all our camps... in fact... even during normal sch hours... everithing u do muz sit down as a grp and reflect... blah blah blah...
and guess wad most pple sae most of de time...
"oh we bonded so well..."
"oh our grp didn't bond at all"
"oh today was so disappointing as u guyz didn't bond as a grp"
"oh u guyz did veri well as a grp"
"oh i'm so disapointed as things didn't turn out as well as i expected..."
"oh u guyz juz ran off in yer own directions and there was no bonding"
yeah yeah yeah... wadeva... wadeva... bond here bond dere... so freaking effed up... n later can complain u so depressed... yeah yeah... depressed larh... itz cause u think of it dat way wad... everitime i see everione so happi la la laing away... and muz sit down n tok bout all de bad things... wtf??? and still complain depressing...
i think dis post will be a little controversial... but nvm... i'll juz post it...
SJI has been a great sch... it relli strives its pupils to work hard in wadeva dey do and it relli provides a veri competitive environment... so u see good results everiwhere... in studies n sports...
however... there's a downside to everithing... and in dis case... this competitiveness has relli gotten most pple too serious... so everithing pple do muz b so serious... so everithing u do muz reflect one izzit??? see where wrong there wrong... wtf??? u think this iz sum big company izzit...
I relli hate this word "bonded"
i look at other friends in schools which are widely seen by many to be lower in their education standards... many pple look at them as lousy schools... all de neighbourhood schools... but honestly... i think i may even find it easier to live mi life dere cause things are much more relaxed and there's no so called "reflection" after everi single freaked up activity...
of course after u do things it iz good to reflect a little and see where goes wrong and all... but not to the point where it becomes totally "over-done" and useless or may even have bad consequences...
sec 1 orientation camp... everi session ended wif a reflection... ace camp... everi night got reflection... psltc... equally bad... wonder how freaked up worse lltc will b...
ok... a reason for mi writing dis iz cause of wad happened today at the reflection session after de exhibition...
honestly i tot de outing was great... and everione had a little fun here and dere and i tot dat was great... in fact i honestly couldn't ask for anithing more...
but there the reflection comes and everithing is the opposite of wad i think...
few quotes from de session:
"it wasn't as good as i expected"
"no one took the initiative"
"this group hasn't bonded yet..."
"i wasn't very happy today"
"i was quite disappointed"
+ many more...
so yeah... u could see... as usual...
this grp did not bond... how nice (as usual)...
u guyz did not work together... yeah yeah (rolls eyes)...
disappointing... WADEVA?!?
look... the fact is this... we are a bunch of strangers... we haven't talked to each other ever before... and today... we only spent like 2 hours together???????? and wad bond bond bond bond bond crap... plz larh...
This is where the problem lies... SJI iz juz forcing things to happen... let things take the natural course... i mean... it might take time... why not??? things always take time... but one thing for sure... u muz never force things to happen... or elz bad things will happen... juz like trying to get a baby out in juz 6 months... in de end dat poor baby will come out wif one leg???? one arm??? two heads????
let things take its natural course.... mi ex class... 208... no reflection... nothing... no nonsense... it might have taken 2 years, but at least in de end... we "bonded"
even dlss... totally none of dat shit... and it might have taken six years... but i could sae dat de whole sch knew each other and it was a fun place to be... and its no disaster cause us dlss gang still meet up very often go play dis n dat... so the "bond" hasn't broken even we went to different schools... dis is cause dese bonds were cultivated naturally and normally... so they hold strong...
dis has becum so crap... nvm... shan't tok animore... now juz wanna think bout bowling... datz all... aniwaez... hope dis doesn't create too much controversy... but feel free to tag yer comments and thoughts...
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